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“Exquisite poems, tough and tender in turns. These are moving meditations on loss and loving-kindness by a daughter to her mother: a gift to anyone who is alongside a loved one in their dying time.”  Tanya Shadrick (Editor of ‘Wild Woman Swimming’)



“Bennett’s poetry is controlled, spare and with the particular magic of inviting the reader in right-up-close. An agonisingly beautiful, closely observed and compassionate love letter and leave-taking for a much loved mother.” Deborah Alma (Poet, Editor and Founder of The Poetry Pharmacy)



“This collection is a journey into loss: not the big crashing ideas of death, but the gentle; quiet hours of waiting and the delicate structuring and un-structuring of routine around the inevitable. Skilful, moving and careful with no head first fall into sentimentality, these are poems that translate the language of humanity into art and in doing so benefit all.” Wendy Pratt (Poet, Editor)

To Start The Year 
From Its Quiet Centre

 These poems are an intimate meditation on love and loss, told by a daughter as she cares for her mother through terminal mesothelioma. The poet invites the reader to be witness to the private moments of dying, from the physical reality of caregiving through to the alchemy of death, telling the story of a relationship between women that is transformed through grief. Honest, unsentimental, and quietly uplifting.

Published by Indigo Dreams Publishing Ltd. (August 2020)

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“A journey to death and back in words chosen so carefully that each one is a thorn on the rose picked to put on the grave”

“...a beautiful, gentle, honest and heartbreaking work. The love, compassion and tenderness in them gives a quiet, honest hope. The poems are so sensitive, and full of love, but don’t hide from the truth about dying and death. It gives a generous insight into a universal human experience we tend to avoid thinking about because we have no concept of how we could possibly cope. So, maybe it helps us as readers be honest with ourselves?”

“Painful and impossibly beautiful”

"I began the morning, as always, reading poetry, and am really moved by this tender collection of poems by Victoria Bennett, published by Indigo Dreams. It's balm for a mother-bereft heart."

Interview with Helen Millican on BBC Radio Cumbria (from 2hr.12)

The Suede Shoes


The Suede Shoes
after Thich Nhat Hanh

No good news from now
the doctor told us.
The nurse cried.
You did not.

I spend my days on the telephone,
searching for certainties:
names, dates, results,
chasing facts like dandelion wisps,
running out of time.

Sometimes, we talk about death.
Mostly, we talk about hospitals.
Bit by bit, their language claims us.

Meanwhile, the hen scratches
around the tree and the bees
collect nectar from a creeping vine.
The sun finally shines.

This is our in-between
living-and-dying time.

Why bother planting that seed?
Why turn the beds
for a summer that will never come?
Why bother buying the pretty suede shoes?

We choose the shoes because
we can still find joy in a step.
We plant the seed because
we still love the way
it insists itself into life.

We turn the beds because
there will always be a summer,
even after you are gone.

Soon, we shall have only echoes
but for now, we drink tea
and watch the clouds move,
watch the light pass
between the storm

and there is still good news.

Calendar


Calendar


Through my mother’s window, days slip by,
moments so small we almost miss them
in our busy lives of dying:


the way the stocks begin to bend,
the first ash to fall, the lowering light.
Soon, the year will turn.


In the darkest days, she cries out
What time is it?
as if knowing can stop the clock.


She sleeps, wakes confused,
not sure if it has been minutes
or days that she’s been gone.


In the morning, we greet the sun
with morphine and birdsong.
It’s another beautiful dawn, I say


but they get harder.
Another one, she says,
eyes turning away.


The last one
and it is just me.
The rain begins.

To Start The Year From Its Quiet Centre

Review by Ruth Snowden

For many people death is almost a taboo subject, and it is never an easy thing to discuss, but Victoria Bennett does just that, directly and fearlessly. She pulls no punches - the endless waiting, the slow, agonising deterioration of body and mind - even the weight of the separate organs of the body post mortem. And yet, in this powerful collection of poems she strikes right to the heart of the matter, to that mysterious place out of time, where bottomless grief and unimaginable bliss somehow meet - and make us a part of something far greater than our small separate selves. 

Why did no-one tell me

death felt like this -

an unbearable joy?

You leap from star 

to star and then,


you are gone.


The quiet of the dark,

faint night-singing.’


This is poetry at its best. Definitely an experience not to be missed.